Wednesday, August 18, 2010

considering the birds...

today i'm going to share what's on my heart...so if you're looking for crafty goodness or colorful inspiration, this isn't your place today. 

my heart has been a bitter & worrisome place this past week.


i've found myself complaining constantly despite the beautiful place we are living in.  and by beautiful i mean...BEAUTIFUL. this is the view from our apartment balcony. are you kidding me? 






here are some regular foolish things that come out of my mouth.


i am so tired of wearing pants. 


i just want to wear a tank top for crying out loud...it's flipping HOT outside.


*grumble grumble* running sucks when its 90 degrees outside and i have to wear pants and short sleeves.


everything tastes weird here. 


frick. even my grilled cheese tastes nasty. 


wow. traveling via boat got old really quickly. 


is it too much to ask to get some fresh fruit & veggies and maybe some cheese in a girl's diet?!


i wish i had my sewing machine so i could just make myself a new tunic to wear. 


i could use a dr. pepper right about now.


waaaaaaaahhh. kim you live in a tropical paradise for 4 months. get over it.


i can tell myself that daily, but jesus reminded me of his goodness & promises this week. His word is what changed my heart...not my pep talk to myself. don't you love when that happens?


take a second and read luke 12:24-32


pretty please?







clothes have been such a burden and frustration. did i know that i would get tired of my 9 outfits that i brought? yes. but never ever did i think it would happen after 2 weeks. i tried to bring some of my favorite items of clothing...some from jcrew, fossil, anthropologie...thinking if i bring my favorite shirts i will be excited to wear them over and over. 

false.

and i'm constantly consumed with "am i appropriately dressed?" "will ladies think i'm dressed immodestly and not want to talk to me?" "will my students in my class think i'm a skank because i'm not wearing jeans, long sleeves, and a head covering? 

then i get punched in the face with this:





Consider the lilies, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass, which is alive in the field today, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, how much more will he clothe you, O you of little faith! ((verses 27,28))

i'll let that speak for itself.










i consider myself a pretty decent cook. i love being in the kitchen and preparing meals for chase and i. however, everything takes twice three times as long to prepare here...and it just doesn't taste "right."  i am not exaggerating when i say that it took me an hour to make some tuna salad the other day. an HOUR! for tuna salad. sheesh.

also, fresh fruits & vegetables aren't really a commodity here, so i'm finding myself eating whatever i can find that reminds me of home. mac n cheese, ramen noodles, grilled cheese.  how many food groups in there? oh, maybe two. sick. i find myself just CRAVING a good salad with some hidden valley ranch or some brianna's honey mustard. not gonna happen. 

but He says: 



Consider the ravens; they neither sow nor reap, they have neither storehouse nor barn, and yet God feeds them. Of how much more value are you than the birds
((verse 24))

and then:

And do not seek what you are to eat and what you are to drink, nor be worried....Instead, seek his kingdom, and these things will be added to you. 
((verses 29, 31))


boom.

now am i saying all this for you to feel sorry for me? no. ha. NO. please don't. i am so blessed and we have more than we need. I just wanted to share how the Lord spoke directly to my heart this week...

right when I needed it. 


exactly how i needed it. 


love. 

8 comments:

  1. Aww, this is so good! Jesus is awesome at bringing things into perspective.

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  2. hello! I just started following your blog...so where are you for the next 4 months? It does look beautiful. I thought it was Key West at first. I used to live there. But KW is not overseas. Keep your chin high my friend. change is always tough!

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  3. so encouraged to appeal to the Word and not to my own thoughts because of your honest post today. thanks Kim :). praying for you.

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  4. i miss you sweet girl and i'm praying for you and the hubby. love you SO MUCH and so proud of you!

    ~serenakate

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  5. Kim, I'm praying for you! It will be awesome to see how God uses you in this situation that seems so impossible right now! I'm glad that He is leading you to passages that help - I love when that happens.

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  6. Very inspirational post! I don't know if this is an option for you, but I found the macabi skirt very useful when I was in Fiji. They're cool, modest, easily washable and they dry really fast.

    www.macabiskirt.com

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  7. such a beautiful thing when that happens! i so appreciate your honesty.. i know that i would be inclined to complain about all of those things too.. it's hard when they are all things you normally take for granted. it will certainly make you appreciate the little things more when you come back home! i will pray for you - that you are filled with joy and contentment.

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