Saturday, September 18, 2010

"...achieve the purpose for which i sent it..."

this week has been a hard one. it's really the first week where i've had lots of "ok, i'm ready to go home" moments. where i find myself missing things just for the sake of missing them & making myself homesick. throwing myself pity parties, if you will. 


i keep getting upset that God asked me to put my shop/business on hold to come over here. in my mind & heart, i know He's worthy. in my flesh, i'm rethinking my obedience and keep asking why. silly, no? His word comforts me with, "why spend your money on what is not bread and your labor on what does not satisfy? listen, listen to me, and eat what is good, and your soul will delight in the richest of fare"


almost two months have gone by and after that two months are officially gone, there are only two more where that came from. such a small sacrifice...yet i'm struggling with it. i'm so unfaithful to my faithful God. He's never let me down, and I'm still struggling to lay it all at His feet. these are days when i think God should be telling me "kim, you're a doofus," yet He proves He loves me and continues to pursue me in my defeat & unfaithfulness and tells me "you are Mine"


"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD


"As the heavens are higher than the earth, 
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.


As the rain and the snow come down from heaven, 
and do not return to it without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,


so is my word that goes out from my mouth. 
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.


You will go out in joy and be led forth in peace;
the mountains and hills will burst into song before you,
and all the trees of the field will clap their hands."


isaiah 55:8-12


i'm choosing to rest & trust in His word today. will you do the same?


love. 

10 comments:

  1. thank you for your realness. i've totally been where you're at...i'm there a lot actually. wondering why god has brought me to a place. i've learned that he'll never bring you somewhere and then leave you there. in psalm 23 it says we walk THROUGH the valley, we don't stay there. i'll pray for you today!

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  2. Yup. One of the hardest things in life has been submitting to His will ... really submitting, so that I'm happy through thick & thin. Thanks for the reminders here.
    oxoxox
    Denalee

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  3. Praying for you today girl...I've been in (kindof) a similar situation, & it was hard. And sometimes, it really is just about faithfulness. My testing time is still not a time I look back on fondly, but I do know it's where I was supposed to be at the time. It also doesn't mean that I'll never have a testing time again(wouldn't that be nice- once per lifetime?), but I know that I will get through it, & that He is providing. Hang in there kiddo(I can say that- I'm oler than you)...Before you know it, you'll be home & it'll be Christmas & you might even miss the warm weather. :)

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  4. i needed this today. i often say... you can't have a testimony without the test... i like what the first comment says.." we walk through the valley, we don't stay there.

    thanks for this post.

    sending a prayer your way... :-)

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  5. Love this. It is so hard to find rest and trust in His words. We are so selfish. Ugh. Praying for us all <333

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  6. hey, girl! thanks for sharing this reminder. i needed to hear it too. though im not overseas, im in a waiting period as well right now - and its easy to get selfish esp. when you feel uncomfortable and just ready to move on.

    thanks, girl. know that so many people are thinking/praying for you!

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  7. aww, trusting and resting in HIM is the best place to be!!!

    i did get your email... i thought i wrote you back?! i guess i didn't or maybe i wrote it and didn't send it! i'm sooooo sorry! it's awesome how you know my foote family and it's great that you have a desire for worship leading. you rock!

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  8. what a beautiful post kim~! hopefully the time off from your shop will give you lots of new inspirations that will take your cute shop ever further! :)

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  9. I will do this. Also, thanks for the sweet post about my headbands. I adore you!

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  10. what a really great post (& yes, i'm a few days late in responding). it's so true, everything that you said. & sometimes? those choices of letting Him take the lead are just SO tough.

    thanks for reminding me that we're all human, and that we all struggle with the same things. and that the best thing we can do is stop and listen...

    best wishes.

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