Thursday, September 23, 2010

growing


"Growth is the only evidence of life." — John Henry Newman




it has come to my attention that i am growing. 
growing taller? negative...i wish. an inch or two would suffice.  

this week, as i walked through the food line in the staff canteen for lunch, i chose vegetable curry & rice over french fries & chicken. what the WHAT! who am i?

i'm growing and becoming a new creation...and i'll be honest. it's kinda freaking me out.
i don't even recognize myself from the girl i was just a few years ago...and let's be serious...i'm different than when i first got here 2 months ago.

i mean, i would NEVER think that i would voluntarily go by myself to another island in a strange country to buy groceries. that seemed crazy when i first stepped foot into this country, and now, it's an almost weekly activity. i would never think that when we get back from date night that i'd say "i'll be right back. i'm going to grab some juice." by myself. in the dark. i never thought i'd be "that girl" who followed her husband overseas into a scary, new place. but i am. and i'm thankful...and humbled.




therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. the old has passed away
behold, 
the new has come. 
2 corinthians 5:17 

 as i struggle through getting into the Word daily ((which i fail at way too often)), i can see how as i lay it all down, realizing I can't do this on my own, He is growing me. as I seek His face, ((and even when i don't)) He is making me new. He is refining me and sometimes it sucks. Sometimes i'm over it & i want to go back to my sinful self...it's a lot easier that way. i want to be mad when an old lady gives me an elbow to the rib while getting on the ferry. i want to shoot a dirty look when a dude almost hits me with his motorcycle as he tries to squeeze in between me and the curb.  i want to be mad when ZERO students show up for a class. but He reminds me to love...without limits. my heart is being changed towards the people here...to love them in a way i never knew was possible. the old is gone and the new has come...


i'm semi-terrified and semi-excited to see how He will choose to grow me next...mostly terrified. i mean, come on...curry?


how is the Lord growing you these days?


love.

10 comments:

  1. Oh Kim! I read that quote this morning & have been thinking about it all day! I was even thinking of writing about it, too! You've beat me to it. Change is such a strange thing. It's something we often FIGHT! but when we look back, it's amazing how incredibly strong & flexible we are that we don't break, but just give. Thanks for this today friend.

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  2. Loving this post today!! it's so true. we ARENT living the Life God has called us to if we are not growing!!!

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  3. I completely agree with Olivia's comment. I find him growing in me ALOT lately as I am dealing with a break up. My heart is being transformed into the woman He wants me to be. It is so hard, but God is SO good!

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  4. Where did you move to? I'm, asking because I did the same thing - follow my husband overseas (from Germany to the USA)! I really like your blog!

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  5. you and me both, sister. (and apparently the girl above me, too!)

    i actually posted just today on what the Lord is teaching me. it's amazing what the Lord will teach you when you let him. I don't know if it's been the same for you, but being away from all the American distractions we have has been so wonderful for me. i'm learning to love the simple things and see the good in every situation.

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  6. The Lord is growing me in my response to people. Grr....I fail SO often!

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  7. thanks for sharing your heart, girl. i needed to hear these words today too. praying for you, friend!

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  8. The crazyest experiances and the most odd times seem to push us to growth the most, and you know you are growing because you have allowed your mind to be open to change and fluid with it, what a wonderful journey you are on, the experiances are endless.

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  9. Kim - to say I LOVE this post is simply not enough. You brought tears to my eyes. Tears of joy and a little for how proud I am of you - and I've never even met you! Ha! What? God is so good and I'm amazed daily at what He is doing in my life and those around me. For 2 years - yes I said two - my husband's business has been hit hard by this economy. it has been a challenge and a struggle everyday to stay upbeat. He is growing us more through this than ever and yes, it sucks sometimes. I too want to return to my sinful self at times because sometimes stumbling in the darkness is a lot easier - at least you don't know what the heck your tripping over! xo Proud of you!

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