Monday, May 13, 2013

rites of passage on mother's day

I hope all of you moms out there felt loved and celebrated yesterday. I hope all of you moms who have lost little ones were able to cling to your faith and your family on a difficult day. I hope all of you who struggle with infertility felt abundant hope. 

It was a special one for me, as it was my first Mother's Day. Chase surprised me with flowers and a massage at the St. Julien and although it had nothing to do with Mother's Day, a friend gave me some AMAZING red cowboy boots from her boutique. Can't wait to come up with an outfit worked around them...I couldn't wait to wear them and wore them last night to Whole Foods and our team meeting ha! I got the sweetest cards from my parents and in-laws, got so many "Happy 1st Mother's Day" wishes from friends spread across the map and even some of y'all ((my bloggy friends)), it was warm & sunny and it just felt so surreal to be celebrating such a special day.

I had Chase take a picture to document the day and my heart melted when I looked at it. Knox really only smiles when he's falling asleep, but Chase captured this big ol' grin and it was icing on the cake to such a great day. 


I felt like yesterday was full of mommy rites of passage, too. For instance, I drank my entire mug of coffee completely cold. No hands or time to reheat it before church. Speaking of church, I was 40 minutes late, dirty hair and all... and if you know me, you know that I hate being late. BUT I went...so E for Effort? The photo above was another rite of passage too -- you aren't looking your best, but your kid looks so darn precious that you post it anyways. Welcome to mommyhood, Kim. I just talked to myself. Add that to the roster while we're at it.

I think the most special one was when I got up to feed Knox at 2 AM. He ate, was still a little bit awake...so I swaddled him and rocked him. I try to rock him for 5 minutes and then put him right down but it was one of those sweet moments that I just wanted to soak in. It was pushing 3 AM and I, of course, needed to sleep but as he snuggled against me, cooing and keeping me warm I couldn't help but take it all in for way longer than 5 minutes. I sat there, with the nightlight illuminating the room from behind me, watching the shadow on the wall of us in the rocker go back and forth, feeling his tiny breaths, smelling his shampooed fluffy hair, snuggling my precious little one tight knowing that He is a gift that I can't take for granted for one second. 

These moments won't last forever, but I have to be able to look back and know that I soaked them all in as much as I could - whether it's captured in photograph form or not AND whether it's during the day or at heinous hours of the night. Sometimes I think those moments not able to be captured on instagram are the ones most cherished. The ones that feel like a warm blanket on a cold night. The ones that keep you from taking life for granted. The ones that perch on your soul and remind you of God's grace, His goodness, His loving kindness and His endless mercy. 

What a gift motherhood is. I never imagined it could be so sweet.

love.

15 comments:

  1. LOVE the picture of you and the little guy! And glad you are able to soak in those precious moments and enjoy a great first mother's day!!

    -Chelsea
    chelsandthecity.blogspot.com

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  2. I am so glad that you are savoring motherhood and giving yourself grace. and you do look beautiful in that photo; you are glowing, lady. xo

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  3. What an incredible first few weeks it's been–and such an amazing image of the two of you!

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  4. So beautifully written.

    I also had to freeze a moment of yesterday with my son -- I watched him asleep in my arms, heavy (he is almost 20lbs!) and thought about all the times when he was a newborn when I just wanted to put him down. Now I cherish being able to rock him.

    I have no pictures from that day -- no gifts -- was not even recognized -- but that moment topped it all.

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  5. Congratulations and blessings on your first Mother's Day. Truly memorable and lovely.
    xo

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  6. I can't imagine what a beautiful experience it is to be a mom on your very first Mother's Day - & that photo is a great bonus! :)

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  7. Such a precious post, Kim. So glad you're soaking up all that Mommy goodness. I hope to one day experience it as well :)

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  8. this post gave me chills and made my eyes well up. what a beautiful moment that makes me truly excited to experience motherhood. glad you made the effort to soak in your first mother's day! too precious how Knox is smiling at his mommy in that photo. oh and you look beautiful in it by the way, you always do!

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  9. Congratulations on your first Mother's Day! And good for you for giving yourself lots of grace!

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  10. Beautifully written. I have a 4 1/2 month old and I will watch her sleep or soak in her snuggles at 3 am regardless of how tired I am. She is such a blessing and I thank God every day for the gift of being her momma. Your sweet words really hit home :) happy Mother's Day!

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  11. oh my I haven't been blogging for a week and I missed your announcement! Congrats so adorable!!!
    xo

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  12. So glad you had a wonderful 1st Mother's day. and it's so special he smiled for the pic :)

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  13. How seriously wonderful! happy Mothers Day! Such a sweet picture :) He loves his momma :)

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  14. That photo is precious!

    xo Jennifer

    http://seekingstyleblog.wordpress.com

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