Tuesday, July 2, 2013

adjusting to a new normal. again.




And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the flowers of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.  But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? ((matthew 6:28-30))

I feel like as soon as I found my new normal, it changed again. I'm pretty sure someone told me that's a common theme in motherhood. 

I have a lot on my plate, much of which I've added without thought...forgetting that life isn't as calm as it used to be. I keep finding myself asking, "How did you think you would have time or energy for this, Kim?" But I power through in my own effort and not relying on God for strength  patience, and energy. That's never a good idea, just in case you're wondering.

I find myself worrying about stupid things and then am reminded gently by the Lord that I have nothing to worry about. Somehow I forget that far too often. 

Free time is scarce and usually filled with "wife duties." Somehow dishes pile up, laundry remains in a pile to be folded, and meals need to be planned. Groceries need to be purchased for said meals. All of a sudden everything in my controlled life is turned upside down and out of control. That's when I need God the most, yet forget that I can't do it on my own. I'm not in control, no  matter how hard I try to be. 

No complaints here. Promise. & apologies for the rambling. Kind of. I'm just adjusting ((again)) and s l o w l y  figuring out what life is supposed to look like.  Thanks for the grace while I do so. :)

love.

9 comments:

  1. I've been in your place so many times now. Motherhood brings a lot of sacrifices, big and small. Because you're now on, what seems like a time crunch for alone time or even "chore time", it helps to just give yourself grace in areas to make your load a little lighter for the time being. I don't get to have fun cooking gourmet meals anymore, because I don't have the time or energy. I don't fold all of our clothes anymore, because I don't have the time or energy. Dang, I hardly even curl my hair anymore for the same reasons! But, know it's just a season. Things will not always be this way. Someday, you'll have time to do "all the things" again. For now, be realistic with yourself, take baby steps, and set new expectations with your hubs for how productive your days should look.

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    1. WELL said, Moriah. I'm struggling here too. So many thing I want, including being a loving mother and wife. It's so much!!!

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  2. Oh trust me, I am RIGHT there with you Kim. Motherhood and wifehood is a job in itself! My husband is in the Army, so I find myself raising my two year old on my own, and I didn't realize how much harder it was to do everything on my own. But you're right! The best thing to do is to adjust and keep faith! Stay strong lovely.

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  3. You've read this poem before, right?

    Mother, O' Mother, come shake out your cloth,
    Empty the dustpan, poison the moth.
    Hang out the washing, make up the bed,
    Sew on a button and butter the bread.

    Where is the mother whose house is so shocking?
    She's up in the nursery, blissfully rocking.

    Oh, I've grown as shiftless as Little Boy Blue,
    Lullaby, rockaby, lullaby loo.
    Dishes are waiting and bills are past due,
    Pat-a-cake, darling, and peek - peekaboo.

    The shopping's not done and there's nothing for stew,
    And out in the yard there's a hullabaloo.
    But I'm playing Kanga and this is my Roo.
    Look! Aren't his eyes the most wonderful hue?
    Lullaby, rockaby, lullaby loo.

    The cleaning and scrubbing can wait till tomorrow,
    But children grow up, as I've learned to my sorrow.
    So quiet down cobwebs; Dust go to sleep!
    I'm rocking my baby and babies don't keep.

    ...

    Don't kill yourself. Do the bare minimum. Knox is so little, and it goes so unbelievably fast. Take care of yourself, hold that baby and enjoy it. Slow down, Mama. :)

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  4. Totally understand! I'm pregnant with our third and I feel like every other month is an adjustment-just when I get into a good routine...boom...change. I am so guilty of taking too much on and I've recently had to step back and ask myself why I feel like I need to put so much on my plate. Are they things the Lord has for me to do? Or are they things that I'm trying to find my worth in apart from Him? I often panic when I don't think I have enough going on and then stress out when I take on too much. I feel like motherhood is a long road of figuring out a balance and slowly learning that we can't do it on our own.

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  5. I know the feeling! I'm pretty sure I'll see 10,000 new normals in the next 18 years... I am constantly praying for patience and perseverance as I adjust to the new normals! I promise you are not alone!

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  6. Hi Kim...new follower! Came across your blog a while back and bookmarked. Love your style and mission of your blog. This post meant a lot because I find myself here and there starting to worry and I always go back to Matthew 6:28-30. I'm learning to take it one day at a time and renew mind and spirit each time. Many blessings!

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