To be completely honest, it has been a really discouraging few weeks on the business side of Oh, Sweet Joy. I've gotten stiff-armed by countless boutiques, even ones I've worked hard to build a solid relationship with. Between passive and indecisive emails that just lead me on and don't give me a distinct answer, wholesale orders not being followed through with, being completely ignored and just all around bad timing with exciting opportunities that don't get to play out...I'm just feeling defeated. I try so hard not to wrap my identity up in my brand...but I have to admit it's really difficult not to take things personally and not wear my heart on my sleeve. It's one of those situations where I'm like, "What does it even look like to find my identity in God? How does that tangibly play out in my life?" I keep asking and pleading with the Lord, "What is it you're trying to show me and teach me here, God?"
And I still don't know. However, some things that keep coming to the surface are:
1. "When we know God and are loved by him, the seasons of life are no longer threatening or crushing because we know that he is good and loving." This is from Chase's sermon this past week, which you can listen to here, if you're into that sort of thing. When my hope is in God and not the stepping stones of success I try to lay out for myself, I cannot be threatened by a season where things aren't working out. It definitely isn't time to throw a pity party, but instead an opportunity to remember truths that I know and need to choose to believe.
2. I value loyalty way too much, especially when I feel that I've been nothing but loyal. When it's not reciprocated I feel betrayed and unloved. But, how dare I demand loyalty of someone to anything or anyone other than God? It's pretty gross to see that in my heart. It's eye-opening and convicting, to say the least, that I want someone to be more loyal to me and my brand than anything else...and if I'm not careful, that can quickly result in an entitled attitude of "Give me your endless support like I've given you or you're dead to me." Ew.
So, like I said, it's not time for a pity party, but I would love some encouragement and truths that uplift you or even punch you in the gut to snap you out of it when you're defeated and deflated. I'm hoping the comment section below can be something I refer back to when life doesn't go as planned...which is often, isn't it? ;)